Archive for January, 2008

06
Jan

I’m posting this again: The Happy Inner Me

I’m a feminist in my own connotation. If, for others, it means getting equal rights with men in the workplace or in the household or just anywhere, for me, I think it is about allowing ourselves to be treated with reverence because we are women. It’s about getting respect as a woman and respect for our feminine ways. We are different from men but that doesn’t make us less intelligent or less capable as individuals.

My strength is not so obvious because I appear gentle and sometimes shy? Or meek and silent? Or sweet, bubbly and being lusted at? Hahaha! My strength comes out when I need it. I am a difficult person to pacify if I really think I am right. Theory makes me wise but it is life’s experiences that make me wiser. I don’t believe in the saying, “Find out what makes you happy & follow whatever your heart tells you. They may call you crazy but at least you’re a happy crazy person & not a lonely empty wise person”. I say, that line is like choosing between two rubbish options. What I believe in is, “I’d rather be a happy wise person & not a lonely empty crazy.”

I admire the refined personality of Karen Judd, Lucy Torres, Amanda Griffin and Kate Koch; the vibrant personality of Anne Hathaway, Jessica Alba, Britney Spears and Katherine Williams; the elegance of Angela Mackay; the eloquence of Tiana Harilela; the spirituality of Lucy Torres and Gary V; the physical beauty of J.Lo, Demi Moore, Sandra Bullock, Beyonce, Keira Knightley and Paris Hilton; the chic personality of Shu Qi, Tonette Aldes and Ging Abal; the sexy personality of Angelina Jolie, Aishwarya Rai, Jennifer Garner, Gabrielle Reece and the famous Russian lawn tennis players; the leadership qualities of Mr. Masayuki Ohba, Mr. David Tieng and my parents; the strong personality of my blood relations.

Finally, I respect the innocence of children. I have compassion on persons experiencing emotional drawback and who seek my help. I don’t only see them as they are but also who they can be. At times, I only have composure toward the persons who offend me because, by personal statistics, it’s Him and Karma that pursues them and their loved ones. I believe that before getting into a relationship, one has to make sure that he or she is happy with himself because he/she needs to bring himself as a whole person into a relationship rather than go with another person to make him whole. Otherwise, one will become an insecure and a discontent partner in his/her lifetime. In the matter of letting go of someone, I know how good he is and I know how much the other things mean to him. I just don’t want him spend his life wondering what could have been. A sexy man for me is someone who is morally sound and upright thus having self-control. And of course, someone who is intelligent and brave (and taller than me; hehehe).